This will explore the externals only. We will visit the internal journey next, but for now we merely look in on the house of Judas and record what we see.
First we note the man is blind. Later the account reads that something like scales fell from his eyes. It is clear that Paul does not see anything. This man of strength of muscle as well as strength of conviction. He is blind.
Second, he eats nothing. For three days. One gets the image that he is deeply engrossed in silence. The scene does not convey chit chat, nor even conversation. A man alone, deeply engrossed in his internal surroundings.
What does he have as the bases of meditation? That much we know. here was that light, that light shining down from heaven with the intensity that could only have originated from heaven.
Then the words he heard. He reviews over and over the words he heard from Jesus. “I am Jesus.”
What does that mean? What are the consequences of truth that flow out of that declaration? Something only vaguely grasped, something about God’s Messiah, about the resurrection of Jesus.
And, “Wait, you will be told what to do.” Something else is coming. This is not just a divine lesson in truth and reality. This revelation is connected to a mission. But what mission? Surely connected to the revelation of the light, of the Messiah, Jesus.
If we had been there to observe and report, we would not have had much else to see or hear.
But inside his head… We dare to go there as far as we can and to follow his thoughts, follow the threads already present, threads that will anticipate what is to come.